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Direktor des IfTW –  Peter Töpfer – aka Peter Post

PT-Banner mit Dovid Weiss

Mit Lady Michèle Renouf und Dovid Weiss auf der Holocaust-Konferenz 2006 in Teheran

Musikproduktion Studio Rue Cler Paris
                      Bambino Studio West-Berlin
                      (1986 - 1988)

all lyrics

Close your eyes

Wherever you go there are things you see
That keep you imprisoned and down
All day long you see ugly faces
And the crowd is always around

You deal with people who are stupid and mad
And they force on you their mind
You don't know the difference you've got used to it
For such a long long time

    Close your eyes
    Don’t see the shit ‘round you
    Close your eyes
    And don’t forget it’s not your reality
    You’re only put in this place and in this time

Your parents and teachers are united against you
They want you to be like them
Your neighbours and the people you’re with in the city
They all are against you again

The things they tell you have nothing to do
With your feelings and your dreams
It’s rubbish and for them just pastime
But this is what you cannot see


When I was a child

When I was a child
And I learned to tie
The laces of my shoes
The technique that I used
Was the one with two bows
In our head there were holes
When we got wounded at the heater
In the garden it was sweeter
We made daisy chains
Or just smelled the ground
We danced in the rain
Or splashed around

The rain flooded the drain
So the rats came out
My daddy with a spade
He struck them down
He played in the basement
The dreadful wraith and
Gave us a fright
Just to have a good time
Tents we built
Out of tables and quilt
I just can’t describe
The feeling there inside

When I was a child
We waited all night
For the hedgehog with milk
And caressed him like silk
My girlfriend she was cute
We played parachute
With the seeds of dandelions
We puffed away millions
They landed in the sand
At the feet of my friend
She baked me mud pies
And was always very nice

I never could see
That D comes before E
The S had unjustly
Its turn before T
Well IKL
Made me think of Kim la Belle
The B after the ace
Wasn’t worth the second place
The number of blue
Was 1 and red was 2
Yellow stood for five
And seven for white

When I was a boy
I was beaming with joy
The sweets I couldn’t keep
But leeks made me weep
I dunked like my old
Grandma salted rolls
In hot sweet coffee
So it tasted like honey
Susan was wild
I took her for a ride
By her pony tail
It made me feel male

Out of every text
Jumped to me the X
It reminded me of sex
Then I got on its tracks
I’d construct a soap-box
And dreamed of a little job
I got meself clean
Pretty and dressed up
But I always had to see
That I really messed up
A constant agony from which
I just couldn’t rest up

It's not me

In the stifling heat
And the sticky streets
with aching feet
it's not me

who’s hemmed in
and penned in
a van in
the underground

    it's not me
    I’m elsewhere
    it's not me
    I don’t know where
    it's not me
    it's not me
    it’s not me

who struggles
every morning
to get out of his bed
it’s not me
who's in trouble
fucking working
it's driving him mad


in the traffic of war
and the racket of cars
it's not me

who walks in zig-zags
among hundreds of legs
it’s not me


Nightmares of death

In my dreams I’m dying
To me it seems as if it’s real
It’s horrifying I’m almost crying
Is there a meaning besides what I feel

Does it mean that I’m wasting the hours
Is it cause I’m lazy mean
Am I punished for being coward
What is the meaning of this crazy dream

    These nightmares of death what’s the reason why
    I’m scared and frightened I don’t wanna die
    Why do I die in my dreams
    Somebody tell me what it means

Usually I don’t ask such questions
But this time it is much too strange
Could it be that I’m gonna die
Or is it a warning that tells me to change

I ask my friend do you think it’s the end
She tells me be easy baby it’s not aids
It’s rather how you live the advice I’d give
Look forward is what it takes


I call my doctor I say doctor
Please explain am I insane
The doctor on the phone says it’s because you’re alone
Sometimes my vein’s the same

I went to a gypsy I told her my dream
What’s the message please help me stop the fear
She looked in her cards there were no hearts
And said you’ll die in a year


One day

One day it all will change
Than the real life begins
Just wait my friend and brush your teeth
Look after your skin

Squeeze your pimples hoover your room
Shop eat vegetables
Take the chance to sleep it off
Jog and catch the balls

Learn a language eat vitamins
Dance and breathe clean air
Do gymnastics go to libraries
It’s tomorrow you prepare

Don’t sit around so sluggishly
Regard the hidden things
Provide them with an aura
Or pull your guitar strings

Try to speak to find out
When it all began
And when it ended up

Tell me when do you think
Will it all begin
And tell me when it ends


You can bust it
When you feel it
You can bust it
When you feel it

Now we can stop the rain
For we bust clouds
Now we can stop the pain
For we bust (those) clouds in our brain

You can bust it
When you feel it
You can bust it
When you feel it

Now we can stop the rain
For we bust clouds
Now we can stop the pain
For we bust (those) clouds in our brain

Let’s bust these clouds
Let’s bust these clouds now
Let’s bust these clouds
Let’s bust these clouds now

See my eyes

See my eyes are they tired & small
Hear my broken voice as I call
I’m no more the boy you knew
When my face shone bright into yours

Is my skin not dry & pale
Are my words not bound to fail
My body is much too hard
Lost inside is my heart

My mind is muzzy my feelings confused
While I cry myself I accuse
What is true and what is real
What I think or what I feel?

My Garden Eden

My Garden Eden
Peace everywhere
Flowers & beasts
Together they share

Meadow & willow
So green & lush
There's no exploitation
Machines just hush

My Garden Eden
Reigned by a king
Who's gracious & just
With a big diamond ring

At his side
There's a princess
Who's shining with beauty
And tenderness

Through my Garden Eden
Flows a little stream
Where fishes spring
And pebbles beam

Over the bridge
Maiden dance & sing
To angel’s horns
And heavenly strings


We’ll be lucky in our future
(‘cause) in the future we have the trust
We are happy ‘bout our future
‘cause now we trust in us

We know we’ll be happy
Because we trust
We know we’ll be happy oh yeah
Because we trust in us

Now we trust in our future
(‘cause) we know we have the luck
Now we trust in happiness
Now we trust in us

We know we’ll be happy
Because we trust
We know we’ll be happy oh yeah
Because we trust in us

Looking For A Love 

When you were a boy it always seemed so easy
to get on with the girls
you never thought about, everything was pleasing
it was just a simple world
but these days are gone
there ain’t no-one
today you’re busy, you got things to do
‘stead of looking for a love

you are still young and there’s always much fun
and still you’re looking good
but time runs out you better think about
what happens if you would
throw your love away
or put off to another day
but you turn it down you say it’s working out
when you start looking for your love

I know these days you endure quiet good
your loneliness
but it could be for eternity
did you imagine that?
there’s no way back
you gonna regret
that you stopped looking for a love
your hands will be frozen and your heart’ll be cold
when you stop looking for love

Be like this

I feel so tense so totally closed
Spirit’s burning in me
There are so many things inside me own
But that’s completely unknown

    Why have I to be like this
    Why like in a cage
    I can’t no more go on this way
    I must get out of here
    What can I do to leave this hell
    How can I change
    What have I to take (or) what have I to pay
    To be able to pass and get free

(But) I don’t know any way to leave
And you surely neither do
I don’t know what would happen
I guess something completely new


I must get free now or else I die
There is no other way
And if I’d sigh and if I’d cry
It’s the hell for me here to stay



You have no violence
You have no sin at all
You are so silent
You don’t heed the call
But if I come to see you you’re so dead
Sometimes I wonder to meet you out of bed

You put everything everywhere anything nowhere you walk and talk
Just to fill it up
And I’m the fool to answer you but whatever I do
You’re a bottomless cup
And all the milk you drink won’t be enough
To be satisfied there ain’t no stuff

You had those far away eyes
But you didn’t see me next to you
You see the glitter and the glamour
Of things you didn’t do
But there will be a day when I shall say
You didn’t believe in me that’s what I’ll say

You describe everything you tear it apart
In your microcosm you rummage around
But your descriptions and your criticism you can stick it
Don’t bring me down
Don’t you know your culture is only an extension
Of reflexes and animal reactions


When I was a kid I was okay
All I can do now is regret it.
You say don't look back and go your way
But I just can't forget it.

    Coz now I'm dead
    And don't feel nothin'
    Neither bad
    Nor good things

Sometimes I ask myself what to do or what to be
But all I see is darkness
You say just close your eyes, don't try to see
Then I'm kinda mindless


I'm all alone and that’s why I’m down
All I have to do is relate to someone
But even you don't care and tell me just to come around
You should know then where I'd come from.

    Coz I'm dead as one can be
    And I really wish to see
    Give me bad or give me good things
    But Lord please make me feel

The River

once there was a flat land so green & so wide
wild meadow & willow the whole countryside
and through all these pastures & earth edenlike
flowed a strong and blue large river

this way of water and that fertile floor
and the beautiful country much men they did draw
the banks became stone and so the land more & more
it was stretched out for window & door

cobbles collected, stones spread around
an enormous area, no meter missed out
and all the dirt that was brought about
got in the good old river

and today it flows the same old way
through concrete & steel, stones so grey
through iron & glass, there’s no more clay
by the bank of that orphan river

it winds the same way for thousands of years  
but things around changed, it all disappeared
the calm where birds sang in the air so clear
the talk of flowers with bear & deer

now it’s noisy & near, the fawns they sear
and rabbits rear their young in fear
but it stayed the same in commotion & haste
though it shares its bed with sewage & waste

the ones that it welcomed pour dirt into it
they exploit-its power with stations they fit
they make use of it it's got no defence
they abuse it and its confidence

bank reinforcement, surveyor’s slats
on which divers climb down in gears and helmets
they dive in slowly into water like wax
in the dark looming dykes weirs embankments

they will build it up from above utterly
with highways & houses, it won’t be seen
beneath slabs it will flow to the sea
the hidden out-driven river

it won’t tell anymore from the former times
that treasure of knowledge will be dumb & blind
and in its grief it will start to dry
losing belief it will decide to die

and after weeks alone through stone
it comes into nature, finally home
then it’s glad it starts to glitter
the always young and happy river

it says hello to cow & tree
to sparrow & sheep, meadow & bee
to all the friends that it knows
since the beginning long ago

for all the dirt it feels ashamed
but to its friends it’s still the same
and though it lost a bit of size
they love it still and recognize
(their companion the river)

the river still carries depth & peace
and the wisdom of the centuries
but that powerful quietness is overcome by disease
it writhes for spitting out the lees
and all the friends stand there & shiver
what happened to the branded river

the cow too is no more the same
the trees are sick, they all have been changed
but the river still loves them and sends them a wave
and they wave back from the grass where they stay

and on its bank are the nature-loving people
the good-hearted humans they sit there & weep
its grief is big, don’t let it deepen
in this morning bath don’t let your tears steep

but in their presence it’s glad & pleased
although the suffering they cannot cease
these people give comfort to it and ease
climb on the Eiffel tower there you’ll see
this silent impressive river

Paris Blick vom Eiffelturm auf die Seine Peter Töpfer The River

Beautiful girl

You’re so beautiful girl
    With so beautiful eyes
    You’re so beautiful girl
    You almost make me cry

When I first met you
It was in a dream
But now I know
I will see you again

Full of beauty and grace
There’s a light on your face
And your body it shines
From the heart within

    You’re so beautiful girl
    With so beautiful eyes
    You’re so beautiful girl
    Your body makes me cry

Git on boad lill chillen

the zion train is coming our way
one beautiful and happy day
just be trusting in what the prophets say
and everything will be okay

those who're sad and those who moan
will be glad and not alone
the Lord he sends a boat
he’ll take us in and leads us home

    git on boad lill chillen git on boad
    git on boad lill chillen git on boad
    git on boad lill chillen git on boad
    we're going to IS-RA-EL

just be patient don't be afraid
for every nation there will be place
with a plane that He wilI send
we will fly to the promised land

all you sick and all you wrong
you’ll be big you will be strong
our father he’ll come along
and picks us up so sing this song


all you daughters all you sons
it doesn’t matter where you come from
you might be white, you might be black
everybody now will go back

put your guns down break your sword
all you people in south and north
just be thankful and praise the Lord
buy your ticket and git on boad


some say we they just fake it
but the exodus we did make it
let's go forward now don't let us roam
be of good cheer on our way home

you in camps in prison cells
don't lose heart you will be well
come together and hear them bells
now we're going to Israel


Last time

It’s the last time
It’s the last time
That I face your face
And don’t stop to answer your smile

Psychology is bullshit
Like politics is trash
Psychology for the last time
That’s what Kafka said

Life at all

I want some friends to have fun
and not to sit & talk
if I don't meet them under this sun
I want no friend at all

I want a beautiful girl
not too tall and not too small
and If I don't find her in that world
I want no girl at all

I want a real good life
wanna have for what I call
if I don't get that real good life
I don't want to live at all

I don't want to struggle or fight
for a better life
if I can't get to the light
I just go to paradise

real good things to me
my mama she had done
now I suffer destiny
‘cause momma she is gone

I came from a long way off

I came from a long way off
and I hadn’t had a clue
I didn’t know which way to go
and what will become of me and you

the trip up to here was arduous
but I got thru it tho’
now I don’t remember what I came for
and why I’m lying ‘round so … lethargic

the earth ‘round here is dry
and the sun beats down its monotonuous way
there’s boring stuff on the program
and nobody’s recording no more the calendar day

over there must start the oasis
where the eldorado is supposed to begin
but nobody can look over the hills
that wall us in

now some dogs are barkin’
and women cross the camp square with water bowls
they watch out that not a drop slops over
and we pull our hats further down

now we’re waitin’ for somebody
who’ll sign us up and out
cause he needs some tough guys
to get the gold out of a distant town

so we’re set off for this madness trip
where the odds are twenty to tern
but now it’s all the same
it’s really all the same


States of insanity
I don’t count them no more
Depression’s been normal too long
Oftentimes I think to destroy myself
(But) there ain’t no way to get outa this hell

    I’m mad
    I’m bad
    I’m so sad
    Gotta get outa here
    The end is near
    And you
    You too
    You’re too blue
    For this life
    You’re a knife

Sometimes I feel like a bottle of oil
Sometimes my head could bring water to boil
Anytime I don’t know if it’s me who deals
But where else should I be if not here at my heels


It's hard enough to take my all
And fearing to go off the wall
But if you attack me with bullshit & rot
I swear to blow you away like a piteous nut


Now I’m lonely there’s no girl at my command
And I’m down while others go hand in hand
There are females that love me but I don’t love them
What I need is a woman but I ain’t no man


Money thinks I’m dead

In the morning, rather noon
I can’t get out of my bed
My fridge is empty
Money thinks I’m dead

If the sea was whiskey
And I was a duck
I’d dive to the bottom
And never come up

Ain’t gonna work no more
Labour is tiresome shore
Best occupation is recreation
Life’s mighty hard you know

Over the hill is the poor house
Please don’t let me go
A place to sleep, something to eat
I don’t ask for more

Ain’t got nobody to love me
Nowhere to lay my head
My life’s a misery
Lord how I wish I was dead

The place in your heart

There are things inside of me
and they will never go
it’s anchored in my body
and embedded in my soul

How can I live when I’m
attached to death and decay
how can we live before
each one’s soul flys away

It’s only for a moment
that you realize you’ll die
good bye my friend and think of me
farewell till it’s your time

I wish that in this cruel world
there’s still a place in your heart
a place for the blood that’s still so pure
as it was at the start

I hope hat you could save
this little place in your heart
a place for your love
and for god

Among all the sadness
of dying everywhere
of all the sick and the hunger
and the sadness of despair

Books finished reading

sometimes you don't even hope to be satisfied
sometimes you don't even hope to be satisfied
you'd just be glad if that pain could stay aside

sometimes it gets so hard to spend the time
sometimes it gets so hard just to spend the time
is it cause of my baby, my baby that I couldn't find

my books are finished reading and my records I know by heart
my books are finished reading and my records I know by heart
if I stay so alone it will break my heart apart

Wasting your life

Everybody shuffling in the street
Everybody has got tired back & feet
Everybody, everybody…
Come on why are you so slack
Come on why are you so slack

It’s a pity that you go away
From this earth without having played your game
It’s a pity that you go away
It’s a pity, it’s a pity…
That you throw your life away
That you throw your love away

The dreams will never come true
The world keeps turning without you
The dreams will never come true
The dreams, the dreams…
What are you waiting for to come
When do you think will come your sun

It’s a pity when you’re dead
It’s a pity that you stay in bed
It’s a pity when you’re dead
It’s a pity, it’s a pity…
Remember when you were still young
And you always had some fun

In every second is the world reserved
In every place you can feel alive yourself
In every second is the world reserved
In every second you, in every place you…
Waste your life
Stop wasting your life

Strain your brain

It was thoughts that brought you from your way
But you forgot them
Now you must dive in your head you must work it out
You must think it again

    Strain your brain
    Arrange your vein
    You must think
    Find your mind
    Continue the line
    You must think

Your thought system can’t be locked out
But that’s what you want
You’re afraid of the energy in your brain
And what else do haunt


It will take time to dispatch and to clear up you mind
But you must start
Take an idea don’t let it stray
Follow it to your heart


The force that never will go down

people get stuck in situations
they can't leave it anyhow
deep inside they feel the liberation
but they just don't let it out

there are doctors who try to set it free
they say they must get it out
but all you can do is to let it be
and to feel the force that won’t go down

    the force that never will go down
    the force that never will go down
    the force that never will go down
    the force that never will go down

now things are going a little better
too long I been lying on the ground
I felt like I was near to shatter
and the force seemed to be gone down

it’s not a magic potion
and too soon again I will be out
but now I feel that strong emotion
the force that never will go down


once I felt that power all the time
I was afraid it could drive me ‘round
it must be normal with the falling time
that you might think the force it could go down

sometimes I thought I could decline myself
that I would merge into the crowd
but then again it stirs inside myself
it’s the force that never will go down


There I see you again

There I see you again
but it's always the same
you are standing there like a helpless child
in your hands wilted flowers
now you’re weaned from power
and you say we should try it another time

your lover just left you
and shame just gets you
for what you have done to me and your lies
now you grovel before
but I don't want you no more
lt’s a pleasure to see you with these suffering eyes

not a long time before
you were quite sure
you took yourself for a beauty queen
but now your make-up runs down
and you twist ugly your mouth
and you’re trembling like an autumn tree

all at once I’m seized from lust
I see your beast of bust
You’re so warm and you melt so obsequiously ‘way
and your lips turn apart
and your kisses burn hot
and I see that I love you and you love me

Without love

Of things you didn’t do
You only see the disadvantage
I don’t wanna feel better things

‘Cause what am I gonna do
With that energy

The warder reminds you where you are
In a prison

Would it be true
That you’re dead

Without love life’s a torture
An empty life

You cannot do all over the years
As if you’re in a train to paradise
All over the years
your slow train is the underground

resignation you called relaxation
and despair you called it anti-stress

why have you been so proud
to be a normal human being
(but) now you have to work again, go work
Now you have to dream again
Keep on dreaming

Are you one of those
Who lost all hope
who lost all beauty and all love

you’re sleeping away your destiny

Won’t pocket

We`re gonna give them what they deserve
We’re gone take them for what they’re worth

The sky the earth the world is wide
It’s open there’s no other side

Ain’t no use in sit & cry
Ain’t no use in wonder why

Everybody’s alone
On his own
The world is wide
No other side

We won’t pocket your spleens no more
We won’t pocket anymore at all

Everybody’s alone
On his own
The world is wide
No other side


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